I start church on Sunday and let me tell you, I’m ready to throw in the proverbial towel. This has been a tough week for me. Why? Because my personal beliefs are in conflict with the beliefs of people that I like and respect. Remember the elephant in the room?
I don’t think homosexuality is a sin. There, I said it. The cat’s out of the bag. I think love is something that should be celebrated whether it’s between a man and a woman, a man and a man or a woman and a woman. I’ve known many gay people in my life and I’m not going to say they’re so cool and loving and lift them up like they’re saints. They’re just human beings like the rest of us. They watch TV, do laundry, drive their kids to school, pick their nose, put the roll of toilet paper on the wrong way, etc. They just happen to be attracted to the same sex. If people are nice to me, I could really care less what their sexual orientation is. So now I’ve got two groups of people that I like, but one group thinks the others are sinners.
What am I supposed to do? Well, I went to the library to look for answers. I walked by the “New in Nonfiction” shelf and a book leapt out at me. Well, not literally but, its title did. When God Talks Back: Understanding the Evangelical Relationship with God. It’s written by an anthropologist and so far, she seems to be describing what I’m encountering in my Bible study. You can check it out at www.whengodtalksbackbook.com
Then I went to the movie section and saw a documentary that said, “Watch Me.” It’s a documentary called “For the Bible Tells Me So.” My husband and I watched it last night. It’s about several different religious families who had a gay child. The filmmaker shows the journey that each family went through. He also interviews Biblical scholars from several different faiths. And it pretty much all boils down to Biblical interpretation and context.
So as I drifted off to sleep last night, I tried talking to God in my head hoping he would give me some sort of answer in my sleep. But, it didn’t happen. I slept like a rock. But while writing this post, I kept thinking of a horse with blinders on. What kind of exploration would this be if I only focused on what made me comfortable? I could stay home and do that. The end.
How boring would that be? So, the blinders are coming off. I’m going to look at it all and see what happens.